inner strength

There comes a time in all our lives when we require something else to take over. It could be a split moment or a prolonged time process, either way , it happens. It's that moment when everything around you seems to just fall through your fingers. The food doesnt taste right, the mirror image doesnt give the desired effect and the rain just never stops raining!

Usually when this feeling comes it's natural to role with it, let it really gain momentum so that something naff really does happen, something that just doesnt exist in your mind. I am ashamed to say that sometimes i even enjoy the feeling of a temporaray downward spiral, at least you know where your at with a downward spiral .
 But no, the moment i am specifically talking about is those special times , though very rare, when something else takes over. A feeling ...a "dont worry because everything is gonna be ok " feeling. It comes from within you . Through the void comes a refreshing , light ,heady feeling.
A feeling of peace and calm even though your in a storm. Even when everything else around you looks like a scene out of Eastenders ( dodgy acting inclusive)

This feeling lets me know that everything really is going to be ok. When it all looks a little like the shape of a pear, but your smiling on the inside. When the storm stops and you realise that your hardly even wet ..and when (and this is the best bit) you slowly lok upwards into the sky and out comes this beautiful rainbow ,sparkling bright happy colours before your very eyes....

That's when i know....

that God is watching over me

multi tasking

so...,here i am looking at my 4 year old girl and entertaining her while writing this and simultaneously making food. I am also talking to my sister while also researching housing options for her on the Internet.
Are women really the only sex that can multi task?

My Husband argues that point stating that men can multi task with the best of them. I have to say that i have seen him in his multi tasking glory , fully capable of sending e mails , selling over the phone and then remembering in great detail which part of the conversation we got to .

Whatever the answer , i find it amazing how our lives are consumed with cramming as much activity in as we can. Whether we are trying to make money with our own business or doing over time at work or trying to kill ourselves with keeping up with the every day paperwork or keeping the laundry going.
you know what i always wonder..wheat would actually happen if we just stopped?

Would we drop all of our balls..would the treadmill of life keep chugging along anyway? and where are we actually in a rush to get to anyway? I have a belief that people who allow themselves to be ridiculously busy, are in actual fact in denial. They are trying to avoid having to think at all. Some people  keep themselves occupied because they know that if they stop, they will have to deal with the reality of their lives.
Not everyone of course . Some people i know have all the time in the world, aint going no where and are completely happy about that ...
sigh ...ignorance is bliss

blog city!

May this be the beginning of what will hopfully be a beautiful relationship with me, my apple mac n the res t of the world. May it be emotional, crazy and a little too much but all in good taste of course. An opportunity for me to talk as much as i want and get off my chest what i need to.. kinda like therapy..
Watch this space !